Johneboy, 61

I am a 45 year old man who has found himself in a situation i never thought i would be in.I have prolapsed discs in my lower spine and have now become disabled through the condition.I have worked through out my working life,but now find life passing me by,i am married,but find my relationship with my wife strained to a point of no return.I am looking for someone who knows what i'm going through,and can understand how i really feel.I still have needs and feelings ,but at the moment i am alone with them and need to
meet someone who does not sympathise with me ,but understands where i am at.
I consider myself to be kind,honest and above all genuine person,who would like to meet someone who needs the same out of life as me now,I'm a non smoker,and a non drinker,and consider myself to be a genuine kind of guy,who seems to have lost his manual for life,does anyone out there have a copy they can help m with, or help me re-write mine?