Chosen, 68

" I was so much older then,Im younger then that now"...Dylan.. I once believed it would be possible to find a soul mate,and once found,would lift a different veil.Not the one,once torn,floods the warm spirit with darkness,lonliness and grief,haunted you wish too see no more,but a gentle breeze,seperating the veil to sunshine,smiles,security,love and hope.Not disneyland,but a shared happy,stimulated life.No,I do still believe.For if we are codemned to a life of shared but empty rooms,then the purpose of life being a gift is a lie.Complete trust,warmth and sincere love beyond definition,are a part of the miracle of life.Im not necessarly smart,wise,dependable or emotionally trusting,but a horror filled young life with a nice little case of clinical depression thrown in has not for one moment shaken my belief in life,love hope and wonder.My mind tells me that to walk in Gods creation is an awesome wonder.Bad as it is and its bad,this universe,and everything in it is my playground.The matrix.My matrix,but cool as that is,and thats pretty cool,if we walk through it alone,it means not.Nice speech from someone who spent much of his life hiding,but I never hid from hope,God or love,I hid from pain and fear.Doing so stole so much of my life.Yes they are our enemies but not in the way we think.Pain and fear are the evil wizard of oz,never allowing you to go home.Hope warmth,even trust are possible only for those who open themselves to the you you know exists,but youve been afraid to risk.Without risk we hide in the shadows of eden.Ya Know what.It would be a joy and adventure to chat.Dont let my ramblings make you think Im grown.My faults are those of many,maybe all who knows,but I love me, God loves me and I want to share the playground.Id Love to hear from YOU.