cjbravehawk
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Hi Everyone! I have been to different sites to get support for what I have gone through with my disabilities and the loss of my boyfriend and am just trying to see where the best place to go is. I didn't think it would be so hard to find support online and maybe I am just not good at searching.
I'm 34 years old and have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Irritable Bowel Syndrome but also suffer from Eczema of the skin, severe allergies, and recently going through grieving from the loss of my boyfriend of 9 years who past in August 2012. I have been to grieving groups, counselling, alanon meetings, bible studies, and even got into crocheting. Trying everything to get my mind off of my boyfriend being gone and the fact that he is never coming back. It sucks. He was the one that made life easier to deal with.
Friday was a bad day. I haven't been able to see my counselor for 3 weeks because she is on leave until February and it sucks. There are other counselors available but it's not the same and I have to go over things again. It just sucks and makes me miss my boyfriend even more since I feel so alone. To get through the day I was basically told to do things that would comfort me and sooth me so I could get out of my depressive/ anxiety state. I went shopping and bought flowers to put by my boyfriends apartment door where he past and have some for my apartment, a doggie pillow pet since we had two dogs that his family took and I couldn't afford to keep the puppy I bought last christmas, and a magazine since I love looking through them. Then I went home and watched the Notebook since that is totally how my boyfriend and I were so I love that movie which I just bought. It actually did help to have all those comfort things and I love my pillow pet but I still miss my boyfriend every day.
It doesn't help that it has been freezing out and I have not been feeling well so I have barely gotten out for the holidays. Anyway, so that is what I am dealing with right now so any support would be great.
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